I cannot help but focus on the bitter part of it as well. I am older, no longer, a young girl starting out but a woman with all these years behind her, trying to still figure it out and always ask; where did the time go? Are birthdays just a reminder of another year added and reflections of our choices, or should it be a celebration?
What transpired around my birthday was, that I allowed certain events to over shadow the good and because of that, it became a bittersweet event. When I started out blogging, I promised myself that I was going to be as truthful and open as one can be, but the difficulty of that undertaking, is that certain things cannot be shared. Therefore, I apologize for the secrecy ….all I can say is the experience that I felt was most likely a fear, what followed was confusion.
Therefore, since my birthday, I am working on resolving a few things….change is inevitable….but more importantly is that, what is done is done, I cannot change my past so I accept all of it. I have too, because I have to make the next phase of my life the wonderfulness it deserves to be…..and I know it should be and it could be; because only I can make me feel that way…. I forgive my past and accept it…
We were invited to our friends’ son’s 1st Communion celebration and I was presented with a wonderful personal cake! Thank You, my friends!